Imagine

Imagine lots of things.
Most of time i am imagining my man,my mr right ,my lover ,my partner who could spend his life with me.
Well in my mind my man should be caucasian,28 to 45 years old.180cm to 190cm ,good looking with nice smiles. average body to stocky. not childiish,sense of humor ,sweat heart and romatic.
When we are watching tv ,he ask me to lie on his legs or chest.
When we are going out,he could hold my hands and give me a french kiss.
When we are having a dinner ,he could look at me and with smile.
I hope he could bring me to travel all over the world, you know my ambition is eatting all the nice food over the world.
I hope he could bring me to the bar club to join his friends conversation.
I hope he could bring me to the cinema to watch the moives .
I hope he could bring me to the countryside to have a picnic.
I hope we could have some wine at home ,enjoy the every second we been togather.
I hope we could lose each other into each others world when we are having sex,i love to have sex with my partner everyday.
I hope he is looking at me when i am weaking up,show me a nice smile and sweet kiss......
I hope we could be togather for ever,love each other till the end of the world.

Films star

I want to be a films star.To act everything love stories.I want people not scared of be gay and fell in love with someone.As you know,most of people they like men,but they are decent ,hide themselves to deep.Be honest ,to be gay it is not easy as the sexual culture.But it is innocent to be gay.So i wish i could act all the characters,record the romantic happiness and bright stories for gay guys to remember ,always remind them whenever whatever happened ,never give up your faith of love.
LOVE DOES WONDER.!

I just wanna spend my life with you

All the time , i was waitting for a man.A man i just saw once ,but i have fell in love with him.I just want to spend time with him even just one more time.But after i waitted for a long time ,he text to me ,he wouldnt come,I am really disppointed.I changed a lot in order to be much more better and i would like to give him a surprise after he return.But i wont.I tried to call him twice,he didnt answer the phone .And i think i know what is going on.I was angry ,i felt my heart was broken.I hate him,but i still love him.I know i shouldnt ,but i just cannt help myself.
Why.....
Why the person who i love,always go away?
Why
Why the person who i dont love ,always around me?
Honey,I just wanna spend my life with you.But i think it is impossiable now.
I am scared,i dont know who could trust,who will never breaks my heart ,who i can spend my life with...
I lost.....in this world to be a man ,but like man to be my partner and lover.

I just wanna spend my life with you