山无棱，天地合.才敢与君绝！

山无棱，天地合.才敢与君绝！
In English is :we will be togather forever unless the moutains are not angular ,the sky and the earth back to togather.
This  is sentence means  two people  doesn't have to be a male and a famale,I wish they are me and my Mr right Haha...They love each other so much,nothing can stop them.they are going to be with each other forever.whatever hard tough things comes over .they never give up each other.untill they die.
Such a beautiful love story.
I wish i could .....

Singing

I love singing,when i was a child ,i think i am quite good at it, after many years i didnt do practices,not so good as before but still not bad,Ok yes  i know  coz after grew up the voice  had changed, not like angles any more ,Singing is one of my hobbies,i would love to record the songs and share with people.I would like them to hear my singing.These days i am fancying to record a english song named "The last unicorn".It is a classic song ,i love it so much  and i would like to sing it to see how is going from myself.But unfortunately i couldn't find the instrumental of this song.I have tried Google Yahoo music.but nothing for using by recording. Any way maybe it is just out there on somewhere.I need to try a bit more .After done i would like to make it like a vedio and upload to Youtube ,it could be more fun.Can't wait . will let you guys know   Hahaha.....

Mistakes

Sometimes i make mistakes when i am having fun with guys.I always try to please everyone as i want to leave a great memery .some time i try to act a bad boy then we are doing the action.In the film the bad boys always turn the guys on.but someone may think i took some drugs as i seems hyper.Of course i will say not course i didn't do it .And i am seriouse.I DONT TAKE DRUGS .I know what is drug and i know if you take it then it will destroy you,
People use to say  just to be yourself ,but i think if i am myself it is gonna be hard to find guys to have fun. I was told i am a normal guy from the first sight, but i looks better after times and times.So it is impossible that the people fall in love with me from the first sight.Then i am thinking  how many times the people will love me after they met me?
That is why i try to act the different characters to please people,unfortunately some time it doesnt work, ,after that i lost myself ,but the true soul comes out.That is why i like classic music ,i feel it purifies my soul,makes me cool.
I know myself  i have a big heart , i want to make people happy  i never want to hurt anyone.

Not perfect

I am not perfect.From appearance  i think the blue deep eyes are perfect and charming .i like the dark green hair,i hope i am 190cm tall. I wish i am strong  well built.I hope i am pink ,Oh that is angle.Yes it is ,angles are always perfect ,they are with the god as the holy bible. So i like them ,that is saintly.
I think most people are not satisfied of themself othwise the cosmetology arent so popular.
I donnt have perfect personality .I am not patient enough,i could be angry and sometimes i am jealous .i havent been nice to all the people.as god said then the people slap you in the face ,you should turn around and let him do it on another side.I wish i could  but i real cannt.
But i am trying to be nice, becouse sometime i find the life is short and i should bring happiness to the people i have seen.Try not easy to be  pissed off.
Keep smiles to welcome everyday

say it

Look back my last 26 years life.it was so fast.Every day seems the same .First  eatting,  studying,playing and then grew up.After educated go to work.everyting is just normal  nothing special happened to me.And i feel  if  i want something  then i have to work hard on it, because it never easy comes to me ,ever. So i learnt how things going. ,but sometimes if i tried to  hard   it will goes to  the oppsite way,so i have to drop it.To find something instead.
So when people say donnt take life too seriousely, i would say  i donnt want  ,but if i donnt  the life gonna push me to the hell.
God teach me if u want to get into the heaven  ,you have to knock on the door,otherwise  no one could hear you are ouside,we are having fun.
So i say  if i like someone  i wouldnt hide ,i will straight tell you  i like you, i love you .
let you know  how i feel to you.
I have been  through many times  when men flirting me  then i just give them a smile  ,after they gone.
I love you Just say it.

A stable relationship

I watched a tv show called <L Word>. It is about the lesbians normal life.Actually i am not quite interested at this show as i am a gay.You all know gay men donnt like women.Me neither.But before i watched the famouse American tv show called <queer as folks>  i moved,so i am more interested at this  kind of movies. Talk about the gays.
In <L word> there is a lasbian couple for many years,i guess more then ten ,must be, shame i missed the coversations, But i did hear  this couple want to have a baby. wow,another lesbian couple want to make a baby,the last one was in the <queer as folks>,they made two.btw they have ten years relationship and keep counting.
So from these two tv show  i was confused and think about the gay men. I think we are unstable, Becourse not many couples could held their long term relationship for 10 years, never think about kidds.We are just more focus on sex, just need body contact, easy attracted by many different kinds of men .what we want just Sex Sex Sex......then keep going  ,one after another.
So i guess  i am quite different.becourse i want find a man to settle down, even now i am just 27 years, but i am tied been alone,i would like to sleep with someone who always smile on me ,cuddle  me and when i weak up every morning  i see his lovely face with happy smiles. If i had this kind of man i would love him for a long time ,i wouldnt give a promise for ever if i havent got the man,
A new day ,same life keep seeking men form all around,who gonna be my mr right?I will be waitting.....
I know i am not the person who so open theirs minded,I just shy,
You hold my hands i will follow you,You love me i will love you back.

The first post

This is the first i am writtiing something on here and i think i will keep going,when i am bored,happy,exciting,depression.
Oh and by the way i think i should introduce myself for the further visitors.
I am Deng, i am from oriental which have more than two thousand years old history .
I have dark hair ,brown eyes, 5ft10inch highth and i am quite slim so far .and i am 27 years old .
But the most important thing is i am a gay, even i donnt like this word but i have to use it to let you guys know who i like.
i think the bright colour is the most beautiful in the world.so i like the white men.but it doesnt means i donnt respect the other guys ,that is just my nature.That is really turn me on.
I think most people think the sex is all for the gay guys. I do agree we are always attracted by many different guys and have sex with them. I do as well who doesnt. but i am praying for more than just sex ,i am looking for a man who i love and who loves me. who wants to spend the rest of life to be with me . i also know no one is perfect ,when we are living togather we will angry with each other sometimes, but that is the life in the two men’s world.we have to let it come and get through it.To prove we love each other whenever wherever whatever ……..
Thanks for coming guys if u like leave a line ,i will follow